Bittersweet memories...

Looking back at the old photos bring back many happy memories. At the same time, my heart aches as well. Well, we are once good friends that shared so many things together... we went shopping together, we eat out together, we gossip together, we go for movies together... all the happy images that we pieced together are lost...

What had hapened to our friendship? Do we just stand here and do nothing to save the friendship? Or it is this friendship is not important at all from the start? All these while it is a lie? Is this your true personality? I hate to believe so. I choose not to believe so... but it is all as cleas as black and white... that you have changed...

Perhaps I am wrong as well... but is this the way to resolve conflicts? When will this cold war going to end? We have set a border, we are playing a game of pretency... How long do we want to continue this game? My mind tells me that you are backstabbing me, and likewise...

Can't we just be friends like before? Are you happier now? Probably you are, but I am not. I simply still can't understand how you can let go of this friendship so easily...

A person'e mouth can be dangerously poisonous. One lie can lead to the unhappiness of many. Maybe I am the most stupid of all... clinging on to this friendship... hoping that one day it will turn out right again... but I know I am living in a dream...

When are we going to put our pride aside?

Dating at a young age might not be good for some...

Dating at a young age might not be good for some. Agree or disagree? Let's just leave that question and see what I got to say before you answer.

Okay, dating is fun. to be loved and to be appreaciated by someone is a very nice feeling. You feel secured, free and being loved. You don't need to worry over so many things, you know there is always someone to help you out if you have problems. You also might have the fanstasy that the one you are with now is going to be your future partner and you might have some future plans together. When you are down, you always have someone by your side and cheer you up. You recalled all the happy moments spent together, like holding hands, having your first kiss, taking couple pictures together, caring less about how expensive a gift would be as long as your partner likes it. How happy it seems, what can you ask for more, than happiness together?

Little did you know that all these happy moments will end suddenly, leaving you in pieces... Nobody to pick you up again. You ae left alone to cry, to console yourself, hoping that all these happenings is just a nightmare, you hope to wake up from this nightmare. Sorry, all these is bitterly true. You find yourself standing in a crossroad, whether to continue your life in the dumps or pull yourself together and face the world again. The choice is in your hands.

I see a lot of people falling down from their way to success because of love or rather lust. The fact is people who date at such an early age are seldom serious about a relationship. It is only trying out or for fun purposes. So, if you are the serious type, date someone around 21 and above. They are more mature and mostly more serious about a relationship. There is no point to start a relationship at an early age, you end up hurting other people's feelings.

All At Once

All at once, I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that Your not coming back And it finally hit me All at once All at once I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell My eyes began to swell And all my dreams were shattered All at once Ever since I met you You're the only love I've known And I can't forget you So I must face it all alone Chorus: All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea Wishing you'd come back to me And that's all that matters now All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea Holding on to memories And it hurts me more than you know So much more than it shows All at once All at once, I looked around and found that you were with another love In someone else's arms And all my dreams were shattered All at once All at once The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day She took your smile away And left me with just memories All at once Ever since I met you You're the only love I've known And I can't forget you So I must face it all alone Chorus: All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea Wishing you'd come back to me And that's all that matters now All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea Holding on to memories And it hurts me more than you know So much more than it shows All at once

The Entertainer, The Clown and The Fool

You make a fool of yourself to make them happy. They pay for the performance, they clapped hands, turn their head away and leave happily. The clowns always have to change something new to please the crowds. You perform in an enclosed area, they observe closely to see if you made mistakes. It is fair because they can even throw money on you. It is always easy to watch and comment.

This is originated from Wei Peng. It leaves me pondering after reading it. True, we are clowns and fools most of the time. We are always trying to make other people around us happy, and yet they can call us selfish at times. Different people has different interpretations of things in life. What you think is good may not be as good to another. It is always easy to watch and coment, never knowing how the person might be feeling. You hurt the person purposely or unintentionally, sometimes without you knowing it.

No human beings are perfect. It is natural that human beings have flaws in their character and personality vice. When we can't get something, we will always try our very best to get it. After getting it, you will realise that it is no big deal. It is just another ornament or decorative item. Sooner or later, the feeling for the ornament will soon wear off and you will just put that aside or throw them into the thrash.

Recently, I have a different interpretation of life. It is Madam Nik Norjanah who told us that. Thanks to her, my spirits are being lifted by her. Life is a stage, alright, but you are the protagonist, the main actor or main actress, so it is up to you to run your life. You choose your audience instead. Those who are good to you and make an impact in your life deserved the front seats, whereas those who are not that close to you deserved the back seats. It is about how you managed your life, you decide whether you want to be happy or unhappy. So, whether you like it or not, you have to live one day happily or unhappily...

No matter what happens, you are still you. If you think it is for the better, then change. If not, just be yourself and continue your life. You can never please every single person in life. Though it sounds selfish to put yourself as priority, but if you don't love love yourself, who else will?